What's the Most Money You've Ever Won and Why Didn't It Make Things Better?

[ParlayPrincess_88]

Prof I can't.

 

[FadeThePublic]

"She saw the win as a door to something and I saw it as more capital."

That's the whole thread.

That's probably the whole problem.

 

[SharpEddie47]

The door versus the capital.

Two people in the same room experiencing the same win as completely different things.

One of them was right about what winning was for.

 

[CoachTony_Bets]

Prof you've just described something I've done to my own family without recognizing it as the same pattern.

Wins that should have been doors.

That I turned back into capital.

I need to sit with that.

 

[Klaus]

Also sitting with this.

Wife's question and Prof's memory are the same question.

What is the winning for if not for the things outside the system.

I have not answered this.

I have just kept the system running.

 

[DublinDegen]

no one to have that moment with for me...

no one to see the win as a door...

which used to feel like freedom...

now reading prof's post it just feels like something missing...

the win that nobody else sees as anything...

just a number that changes and then changes back...

 

[TaffyTipster]

Conor.

 

[oli_sussex]

The door versus capital framing clarifies something I've been unable to articulate about why I left the exchange.

Everyone there saw every number as capital.

Nobody saw doors.

By the end I had lost the ability to see doors myself.

Took years after leaving to partially recover it.

Not sure the recovery is complete.

 

[SharpEddie47]

Started as a question about the biggest win.

Turned out the biggest win is where you can most clearly see the shape of the problem.

The losses obscure it. The big wins illuminate it.

You see exactly what you did with the thing you were chasing.

And apparently most of us put it straight back into the machine.

 

[FadeThePublic]

The machine needs feeding whether you're winning or losing.

The win just means you can feed it longer.

That's not better.

That's just more time before the same ending.

 

[ParlayPrincess_88]

Next time I win something real I'm going to take it out.

Actually take it out and do something with it that isn't more betting.

See if I can.

See if it feels like something when I do.

 

[CoachTony_Bets]

Princess that's a good rule.

One win. Taken out completely. Something that has nothing to do with a spreadsheet or a line movement.

See what it feels like to let a win be a door.

 

[DublinDegen]

hope you do princess...

genuinely...

the door version sounds better than what the rest of us described...

 

[TaffyTipster]

Yeah.

Good thread Eddie.

Going to think about what doors I've been turning into capital.

Bronwyn's got a list probably.

She'd just be glad I finally asked.