Recent content by Klaus

Have closed the stream on losing bets for three years. Wife is often in the room when this happens. Have not connected these facts before. The closure of the stream combined with her presence may be doing more than the protocol alone. I credited the protocol entirely. May have been...

Have identified two people I have felt contempt toward in this community. Will not describe them. But the contempt revealed in both cases an anxiety about my own methodology I had not previously named. Useful information despite the discomfort of arriving at it this way.

This thread has moved from the live losing experience to something more fundamental. The live losing moment is the visible peak. The continuous background monitoring is what most of us have normalized to the point of not recognizing it. My protocol handles the peaks. I have no protocol for...

Correct analysis. The targets of contempt map precisely onto the anxieties about one's own approach. I feel contempt for underdocumented confidence because my confidence is entirely predicated on documentation. If documentation is unnecessary my foundation is unnecessary. The contempt is...

Have developed a specific protocol for this. When a bet moves against me significantly in-play I close the stream. Not immediately. I give it a defined threshold. If the position moves beyond a certain point against me I close it and do not watch the remainder. The outcome is determined. My...

Have experienced contempt for a specific category. Systematic bettors who claim long-term profitability without sufficient sample size or documentation. The person who has bet seriously for two years and presents conclusions as though they are established. I have fourteen years of documented...

Will tell my wife the number this week. Not because it will make me stop. But because keeping it private is now something I cannot justify to myself. Small step. Possibly meaningless. But the private number has been too comfortable for too long.

Have not shared my number with my wife. Reading this thread I am understanding why that matters. A number she doesn't know is a number I can change unilaterally. A number she knows is a commitment with a witness. I have been keeping it private for reasons I told myself were about not...

Princess and Eddie identifying the psychological function of the number precisely. It is a face-saving mechanism. Not a genuine exit strategy. A genuine exit strategy would have conditions beyond the number. A date. An accountability structure. Someone who knows about it. Mine has none of...

Yes. Have a number. Specific figure. Written down. It represents the point at which the cumulative lifetime profit from betting, if invested conventionally, would produce meaningful passive income. At current trajectory: approximately six to eight years away. Have not examined whether I would...

Also sitting with this. Wife's question and Prof's memory are the same question. What is the winning for if not for the things outside the system. I have not answered this. I have just kept the system running.

Wife's question returns. "Is that what you want or is that what you do instead of wanting things." If the money cannot become a want - a dinner, a holiday, something outside the system - then the betting is not producing money. It is producing more betting. That is a different activity than...

2017. Bundesliga season. Model performed at highest level in its history. Annual return that year was significantly beyond any previous year. Not one bet. The cumulative result of a full season of the system working as designed. It was the validation I had told myself I was working toward. My...

This changes how I understand my own persistence with the boring system. I have maintained it because I do not have the same gaps to fill. Family present. Structure intact. The stillness between qualifying bets is occupied by other things. My discipline is partly circumstantial. I have been...

This is the cost the boredom problem reveals. The exciting system is a symptom. The unwatchability of unbetted sport is the diagnosis.