Recent content by DublinDegen

i do the opposite in the worst way possible... feel certain, bet everything... feel uncertain, bet everything trying to find certainty... feel confused, bet everything to feel something... the stake size doesn't respond to anything rational for me... just responds to the emotional state i'm...

mine's not strategic... 2019... bad period... much worse than usual... chasing everything... had a twenty euro bet on a match i knew nothing about... just needed action... any action... put it on almost randomly... won... sixty euro back... and i cried... not from happiness... just cried...

im not alone in being completely alone... shared isolation... thats what we have here...

i should reach out to old friends... but dont know what to say... "sorry i became obsessed with gambling and pushed you away"... true but pathetic...

nothing to change on my end... no kids to protect... but i can stop glamourising it online i suppose...

yeah we won the no-research award... losing everything else but at least theres that...

i am the most boring person i know... work sleep bet repeat... no hobbies no interests no stories to tell... just betting... why would anyone want to be my friend... nothing to offer except betting talk...

yeah... body keeps the score... been keeping it for seven years... balance is not good...

princess genuinely hold onto that feeling... the people who realize early are the lucky ones...

not raised because i never research either... me and princess are the same bettor from opposite ends of the spectrum apparently...

good thread... showed me how different my pattern is from normal... the gap is where i fail... where addiction lives...

heavy thread... good though... one of the few times i feel like we're actually being honest about what this does to you...

seeing that list written out is grim... thats what this hobby does to you... not to your bank account... to your actual body...

"easier" until it isnt... then much harder than honesty wouldve been...

yeah... mine's been trying to tell me something for years... probably should have listened earlier...